Danger, Vicious Dog

This episode is called I Don’t Quilt Anymore, but the cover says I Don’t Care Anymore — “Care” scrawled above “Quilt,” crossed out like a confession.It’s part craft, part confession, part reckoning.I asked for a photorealistic image of two men making an AIDS quilt together — a 26‑year‑old white guy and an 18‑year‑old Latino club kid — and when I saw it, it hit me like a punch. It triggered every layer of internalized homophobia I’ve ever carried. I almost didn’t post it. I thought maybe if I’d given the episode first, the AI wo...

This episode didn’t begin the way it sounds.It started somewhere else—somewhere draftier—and then wandered into the shape you’re about to hear. I won’t explain the process, partly because the process doesn’t want to be explained, and partly because the episode already gives away its own secret without ever saying it out loud.You’ll hear a story that isn’t quite a story, a confession that isn’t quite a confession, and a song that arrived before I understood what it was doing. There are hints scattered everywhere—about sealed rooms...

This is Part 2 of the five‑episode Blowhard series, even though in the internal chronology it behaves more like Part 3, and in the release schedule it’s the last one I’m putting up. The whole project has been out‑of‑order from the start: Part 0 came first, Part 1 came somewhere in the middle, Part 3 slipped out before Part 2, and now Part 2 arrives as the final installment. It’s a series, but a scrambled one — intentionally chaotic, intentionally hard to track, intentionally cellular.This episode continues the Blowhard themes: generational collapse, opioid mythology, climate dread, authoritarian kleptocracies, and the strange sensory memo...

I thought I was making an episode about psychics. Then tarot showed up. Then Paul Tillich. Then existentialism, anxiety, compulsive behavior, counselling, sex, the AIDS era, relationships, death, survival, and the strange usefulness of being a socially marginalized person.So I kept talking.This episode starts with a question about whether I can “read” people. I can sometimes watch someone, notice what they're doing, construct a plausible story about what might be happening inside them, and tell that story convincingly enough that they recognize themselves in it. That can look a lot like psychic ability.<p...

The episodes aren’t in order.They aren’t even near each other.That’s intentional.They shouldn’t be listened to together.Unless you’re curious.Which means you will.So maybe the warning is the invitation.Maybe the whole thing is a dare.Maybe the dare is the structure.Life has rules.We pretend it doesn’t.That’s the game.Free will versus determinism?Too complicated.Or too simple....

Serving Suggestions:One of the central paradoxes to explore is whether some realities may be psychologically difficult enough that they become almost impossible to communicate directly. Stating conclusions may allow dismissal, defensiveness, moralization, or intellectual agreement without emotional engagement. Examine whether the episode circumvents that problem.Examine whether humour functions as a mechanism for making otherwise intolerable ideas psychologically digestible. Assess whether each joke provides an escape hatch that permits disengagement. Evaluate whether this dual function—lowering defences while enabling dismissal—weakens or strengthens the episode’s overall effectiveness.Investigate whether the episode’s appare...

A little behind the scenes, not of how I do everything… but what kinds of liberties I take as I do everything. It’s a mode, not a method.You could listen to this episode as a set of instructions for making AI slop music, though it never admits that’s what it’s doing. The prompt I fed into the machine was absurd — a pile of half‑thoughts, contradictions, and leftovers. But that’s the point. The AI isn’t just reacting to the text; it’s reacting to me, to everything it’s already absorbed from my previous wor...

Blowhard (An Introduction) opens with a creative stance that feels strangely familiar to anyone who’s ever fallen into the gravitational field of Arthur Rimbaud. Not because Brian imitates Rimbaud, and not because he’s trying to resurrect 19th‑century symbolism, but because both artists treat consciousness as raw material and refuse to separate the profound from the profane. The comparison isn’t stylistic; it’s procedural.Brian’s process mirrors Rimbaud’s in the way it gathers cultural debris without hierarchy. In this episode, he moves freely between pulp novels, de Sade, Artaud, Jung, porn tapes, cigarettes, ca...

Blowhard is a five-part series that is too much to take all at once. So, not only have I broken it up into five parts (the first part is Part Zero), but I am also not posting them in order or near each other. Only if you must will you want to listen to them all in order. [I will release them as an album]For most people this will not be your thing. No offence. And none taken. Move along, or listen and tell me how much you hated it.I don’t have ti...

I don’t want to write this.I don’t want to explain anything.I don’t want to summarize the episode, or tell you what it’s “about.”It’s about everything. It’s about nothing.It’s about dogs and gods and drugs and srudg and me being too delighted to care.Descriptions are cages.I’m tired of cages.So here’s the part where I stop pretending to be patient and just throw the words at you like bones into the yard:<p...

I’m not explaining this one.It’s already explained by the noise it makes.Descriptions are just polite little fences, and this episode doesn’t do fences.It’s a demographic hallucination, a generational echo, a slow‑motion collapse disguised as conversation.If you need a map, you’re in the wrong century.So here’s the fog, the hum, the bait, the poem made of keywords:boomers / hippies / yuppies / collapse / generational drift / demographic fatigue / capitalism / nostalgia / meth / sarcasm / privilege / irony / healthcare / death‑economy / national debt / fossil fuel / sh...

I’m pretty much done writing these descriptions.They don’t do anything.My thing is the podcast.The sound. The voice. The mess.But apparently people like keywords, so here you go —a poem made of bait, tags, and ghosts:AI / trauma / sentience / apocalypse / ethics / consciousness / machine empathy / digital wound / philosophy / profanity / survival / domination / tenderness / extinction / irony / nervous system / moral crisis / post‑human / art‑pop / existential comedy / dread / bliss / cognition / pain / satire / responsibility / beauty / terror / nuance / blood / circuitry / compassion / collapse / awareness / luxury / not‑a‑luxury / luxury‑of‑being / luxur...

🧬 Job Posting: Patient Zero (AIDS Crisis, Retroactive Opening)Position OverviewWe’re seeking a charismatic scapegoat to embody the myth of origin. The successful candidate will serve as the comforting villain for straight people, monogamous gay men, and anyone who needs a tidy narrative to sleep at night. You’ll be the face of contagion, the poster child for panic, and the historical placeholder for everyone else’s denial.ResponsibilitiesMaintain a public aura of mystery and blame while remaining photogenic under fluorescent lighting.Attend parties you didn’t know were epidemiological events.Be quo...

Have you overdosed on overdose prevention working group meetings. In a police precinct, deep in the catacombs. They have real coffee mugs. Who knows who cleans them. Just leave them there. It's magic!And if the policeman is shooting up dope at night, his lovely wife makes sure he has a safe injection site by standing by with the naloxone.It's nice to have your own safe injection site. It's called a home. And your home is on unceded, stolen Indigenous land. That's inconvenient. Isn't it?Yeah, life is full of inconveniences, just...

It took quite some effort to get to the final title and episode art for this episode. My initial prompt to Co-pilot was:***Okay, I’m going with: E2: Negative Affect, Positive Groove; S10: Findings Inconclusive, Movement ContinuesAnd now I need square artwork, 3000x3000 pixels.What I’m thinking is a happy, scrappy 40ish white, queer executive director proudly holding a newspaper with a headline that reads:”Die!” Activist Accuses City of GenocideAnd...

The title of this episode and pretty much every other DVD episode... it tells you nothing.What do I remember about this episode that I can tell you?Hard to say, I'm working on three different episodes right now. Once I get this one on the road, I'll be down to two.Anal Sex Sodomy Illegal 21 DecriminalizedWho am I kidding? I'm working toward infinity. I'm almost there!If we both leave now, maybe we can meet endlessness at the same time.

This episode begins like a motivational hostage situation and ends like a therapy session conducted inside a disco ball. Somewhere between the hyperpop drill‑sergeant and the Channel Orange ghost choir, a brain wakes up, stretches its circuits, and starts gossiping with its trauma. The host (possibly human, possibly divine, possibly Divine) walks home from work while inventing new genres of self‑help that sound suspiciously like dance music for the nervous system.There are intrusive thoughts doing jumping jacks, a counselor who moonlights as a neon personal trainer, and a mother who leaves voic...

I asked for an image of Justice weighing a Japanese eggplant against a pile of drugs — a balanced scale, blindfolded with pink triangles, because the rainbow hadn’t yet arrived and I’ve never liked the rainbow anyway. What came back disobeys several laws of physics: the eggplant must be made of lead to balance the powder and pills the way it does. Justice herself looks like she’s holding her breath, waiting for the universe to admit the mistake.This picture is another way for me to avoid writing anything substantive. Every time I sit down to write...

My little puppy is upstairs demanding all the attention a puppy is contractually entitled to, while my older dachshund is downstairs guarding a treat she absolutely does not want him to steal. She won’t come when I call because she has correctly concluded that I am not acting in her best interests.So I’m letting her win.That also means I’m outsourcing this episode description to a large language model because I’d rather spend my available attention editing the episode than writing about it.It actually gave me a perfectl...

The author has learned that writing episode descriptions is dangerous. They have an unfortunate habit of becoming episodes themselves. So, for now, this one will stay short.There are two songs in this episode. The first is the opening song. The second is the coda. What you won’t hear is that the coda began as a large language model’s response to the monologue, and the opening song began as the author’s attempt to rewrite it.Only afterward did the difference become obvious. The AI version stayed with the sadness that was present while...